Career Ups and Downs & Working on Me

So, to continue on with the punctuality post earlier, I know that if I were the boss, I would not promote anyone who comes in late everyday, so I know that I need to improve that in order to be taken as a serioud competitive employee. Last year, I took a one-year assignment and proved that I know how to do my job anywhere, but I failed to take it to the next level in increasing collaborative efforts between the two offices I was working. Not that this was a job requirement, but it would'be been an initiative that went beyound what was expected. I tried to initiate some things on the tail end of the assignment and upon my return, I just haven't followed through. So, I failed at that. Those initiatives would've put me on the rader of a new boss that was moved to my home office while I was away. I say all that to say - they created a new position in my office that I intended to apply for but they gave it to someone who was already at that level as a transition. That's not the problem. THe problem is the qualities/characteristics of the person who was transitioned into the office are the same that I share - its just I have not shown them. So, knowing that I'm not punctual and that I'm a procrastinator in just about everythign I do, but when I want to do something, I expect the moon and stars immeidately, I will begin working on this. How? I don't know. Help is appreciated. Advice is appreciated. In the mean time, I am happy for anyone who is able to do the things I'm trying to do and maintain a family and go through a divorce (the person who got the transition position). I am not a hater. Though she has scorned me through our previous work interactions, I admire and respect her work ethic and way of dealiing with people, even though she is "bout as slick as an oil can." I recently turned 30 (need to write a post on that) and I promised God and myself that the worrying/stressing of my 20s would not follow me into my 30s. I didn't want to carry that weight into a new decade, which I see as an age of maturity and confidence. The 20s were a transition period from college/dependency to real world/independency. I'm happy the 20s are over - not trying to rush life - but the experiences that made me know: when to pick battles how to engage with people; how to be happy are over. Bringing all that into my 30s, plus so much more, I look forward to calmer days. I know the struggles and trying days will come, but I am better prepared. I also found some letters I wrote to God in 2009 and the things I wanted in life (personal and professional) were nothing compared to what He gave me. So, with that I learned to "let go and let God" because my steps have been ordered I've been divinely made to carry out a plan that has yet to be determined by me. I do beleive that if God puts it in your mind/heart, that means he has laid the path...but I believe, in my experiences, that God puts a hint of what He has planned in your mind/heart and then shows up and shows out! So, with all that said, I'm waiting on my blessing, but working on me in the mean time. Tuesday, I will start getting to work at 8:00 and I will make those follow-up calls and setting up those meetings. No matter how delayed they may be, they will be on time and better late than never! However, I know my worth and value. I believe in waiting on the Lord and being still. However, in this day and age, the world is moving and you have to move with it. Like Obama, I will serve 8 years. In 8 years, if he can set this nation on a path for greater prosperity for all, I can and will have certainly proven my talents, skills, and abilities to my workforce. If that is not rewarded with promotion in 8 years, I will be "taking my talents" else where. Therefore, my job now has a 1.5-year notice of my departure. Now, this certainly is not what I want to do. That seed was placed in my head. My hear tells me in due time will happen. You know who's in my heart? God. The Spirit is telling me to remain faithful, confident, and continue to work hard. My work, as always, is for Him and will be rewarded, as lon as I continue to work for Him and fulfill the PURPOSE of the His will in me. Amen!